7th Day Scan

Today was my 7th day ultrasound and blood work appointment. My RE said that at this point of the game, you either strike out or you are ready for the final inning, so he told me "batter up". I had over 20 follicles that were measuring 12mm-17mm. The most important thing at this point is that they need to continue to grow at the same rate. He lowered my follistim to 75 IU. It originally started at 150 then got lowered to 100 and now 75. They said at this point because my estrogen level was 2000 that i am at risk for hyper stimulation (OHSS). They also insured me that even if i do end up having some OHSS that my cycle will not be cancelled. On that note, I left the RE's office and went to go register pre-op at the hospital for both my egg retrieval and my 5 day transfer. WOW. This is moving so quickly. Once you start stimming, hold on tight because its a fast ride to the end. I have a lot going on in my life pertaining to work and I'm trying really hard to not stress and worry and focus on this because IVF is so much more important. But i am a worrier. A big one. Today in the middle of teaching i thought, oh wait, i have over 20 eggs what if my body decided to ovulate all of them?! Ahhhh! But after my RE called me to give me my new injection doses, he assured me that would not happen. But still, i worried.  I worry and stress about things that i can't change anyway but i can't make myself stop..it is just who I am. And a lot of the times, worrying makes me feel more prepared for what bad i could be facing in the future. Because I have already imagined every terrible outcome that could be possible. But in this case, I'm not really worrying about the outcome of this IVF. So on one note that's good because I have confidence and i am thinking positive but then again, i'm not worrying and preparing myself for the bad that could be coming. My best advice is, to take this one day at a time. That is how me, the biggest worrier ever, is not that worried. I only focus on that one day and do not allow myself to think (or dwell) on what could or could not happen in the future. I go back on Friday for another ultrasound to see how my follicles have grown and will probably be getting the trigger shot that night. And then the date for my egg retrieval will finally be set and not just "tentative". It will be here before I know it and I'm ready.