Keeping the Faith

I am a first year pre-k teacher at a public school and today i had an evaluation from our school board. This evaluation included a 40 page checklist of things that should be done throughout the day, some of them out of my control. I get graded on how hot the water is, how much gravel is in the playground and the type of handle i have on my door. So needless to say, a lot of things that are out of my control. So for the things i can control, i am expected to score perfectly to even out the things i cannot control. I have been preparing for this evaluation visit for the last 2 months. I have been extremely stressed. Today was my evaluation and i did wonderful!! I scored almost perfectly and only missed those things that I am not able to control. The evaluators that they send to us are self contracted and can vary in classroom experience and personalities. My evaluator today was truly an angel. They say that when God closes a door, he opens a window..this lady was my window. She was experienced, nice and made me feel so comfortable. Because i felt so comfortable i was able to be myself and do my normal routine. I was so stressed about this and my evaluator could have been terrible and rude but she wasn't. I have been doing IVF and trying hard to stay positive and today really helped. God gave me this evaluator and not any of the other 20 possible evaluators. I told her in an email that i was doing IVF and today she shared with me that it took her 10 years to be able to conceive only one child. She said that she had been saying prayers for me ever since she found out. I have to believe that this lady was brought to my classroom and my life for a reason. I have always believed that everything happens for a reason but when you are faced with infertility it is sometimes hard to keep the faith. Today was a reminder to me that everyone that is in our life is put there for a purpose and everything does happen how it is suppose to and when it is suppose to. And i believe that this is my time to be able to finally conceive. This is meant to be. Now i wait and keep the faith. It will be my time.