The good, the bad, the infertility

Ohh infertility. I try very hard to stay upbeat during this process but sometimes it is difficult. In the back of my mind there is always one question, what if i never have children? Wow. i cant go there..i will not go there. This entire infertility process is so draining, it is an emotional roller coaster. One day you have all the hope in the world and the next you can't stop crying. And now doing IVF, this is a big deal! This is a huge process that is so intense and what if this aggressive, amazing procedure doesn't work?  No, i repeat, i will not let myself go there. Do not let yourself go there. Yes, you will have good days and there will be bad days. And yes, this may not work but more importantly..what if it does?! This could finally be what works. And that chance is worth all of this. All of this is for a baby and it is worth it. So many people say that the key to achieving your goal is to imagine it, the mind is a very powerful thing. My mother keeps telling me to imagine my success, so that is what i have been doing. Every night before i go to bed, i imagine myself going through the steps. I see myself with a positive pregnancy test, hearing the heartbeat on the ultrasound, getting big and pregnant and giving birth in the hospital. And one thing that really keeps me going is the vision of my husband holding our baby for the first time. I can just imagine the pure joy on his face as he holds our little miracle. That is why we put ourselves through this because the result will be life changing, it will be the center of our world and the best thing we ever do. We will make a family, our own perfect family. Don't give up girls. Take the bad days and know that you will have them but no matter what..just keep going to the end. The end is where all our dreams finally come true!!